When the Heart stopped- an imagination

Well I had to come to my college to get some paper works done as it was paper time and end of season. So we had to get clearance from different departments. Fetched the respective forms filled them and did all the required thing to get my self free quite early. It was in a hurry that i did not had anything for my breakfast. I left college in a hurry because she would call me again from her way back from college.

We chatted in fragments. The sun was on the brighter and warmer side today. While coming back home i collected chicken for lunch. Reached room got a bit freshed up but it was not required, talked to her and then got things prepared for lunch.

Things went well till night fell. We chatted after dinner and before dinner i called her as she wasnt in a good mood. The movie she went for in the evening made her miss me so much that she was asking me to visit her right then. It was same in my part when i went for that movie too. Never the less i made her mood as it was before, fresh. She wished me good night and went to sleep. Me too followed her but...

I closed my eyes and was in her thoughts when i found myself in a pain. I was screaming aloud but my screams were in me. No sound i was able to produce. What the fuck it was. I was really sweating profusely and my heart beat increased to suach a rate i could never remember I had the same before. God it was paining hell. I was screaming like a kid who screams when he does not find his mom. Tears rolled down my closed eyes but no one saw it and wiped it. I was as if roped in my bed and was thriving to get freedom. I screamed mom, dad n her but no voice was output.

After a few minutes, am not sure exactly I found things to settle. It was really a good feeling that I recovered an so called stroke. I could atleast move my limbs. It was weired that i sweat so much just moments back but there was no traces of moisture in and around me. I took my right hand and placed it on my chest as I thought i will sleep now. Again Started to see her with my eyes closed calling me, Appy come soon, am missing you. I smiled at her and made my self comfortable to call the day off.

It was a long time that i placed my right hand on my chest. But in an unusually manner I was missing something there. What was that i was missing? I tried to figure the thing out in my mind. Was it my shirt? No it was intact, will the button over the pocket on the left. What was it then? I was not in a mood to get up switch the light on and check out what is the thing that has gone missing. I really was irritated. Soon i came to find the thing I was missing and it made me loose all my senses. Really it was the feeling one never feels usually. The thing missing was nothing but “My own heartbeats...”

Ichecked, rechecked and counter checked. It was all. I wasnt have my pulse. No pulse? Asked to myself. Have you gone crazy? How can one live with out a pulse? Wait a second what did I just say? Am not living? What the fuck is this? Is it that am done with my life? No no, its just a mistake, how can I die so young? How can i die without making my loved ones proud? My mom, dad sugar. No no am alive its just a mistake.

Oh really i was with no pulse. Then who was with in me that is feeling all this? If I am dead i am not supposed to feel all this. Wait a while, who said that a dead person can not feel? No dead person came upto you and said this.Stop giving logics!” i screamed at myself...

If I am dead who gonna take care of my family? My Mom will die hearing this. Dad will not have a reason to live life, and my Sugar is not that stong to survive this. God please dont do this to me. Please dont take four lives at a time. All these were going in me. I was in a situation where I was not able to decide taht am dead or alive? Never thought if one is such situation what and how he should react on to.

The night was hard to pass. All sorts of visuals came in my eyes. What would ne the first reaction when mom dad comes to know. How will my Sugar get to know about this? What will mom think when i will not be able to recieve her morning call? Sugar wont get my good morning text and she will be so worried. I dont know how will I handle all of them? Oh god she just wanted to meet me. Please let me fulfill all my own ones dreams then call me. Started to bribe God. Please god forgive all my mistakes and give me a last chance to make thinds good.

It was soon i felt some thing. My left feet was itching badly and it was un bearable. While I continued bribing God, i sat and started badly itching my feet. Oh it hurts you jerk. Fuck its not your dishes that you are rubbing it so hard. What the fuck? Give me a break, was i dreaming? OMG, I was indeed in a bad dream. For the first time ever in my life I thanked a mosquito for biting me badly. God my pulses were perfect, yeah heart was intact and functioning properly.  Just a dream it was. Oh god....

“May be it was a dream or a fictional creation, made me feel what will i have to see from heavenly ends if i leave the ground early... Amen...”